Fake Plastic Trees by Radiohead

Mmhm that warm, fuzzing feeling after reading love letters written by men at the store this afternoon. There were several letters Napoleon wrote to Josephine which were staggering, left me in awe. When I got back, I spent more time reading up on his flaming love for Josephine and I discovered that he gave Josephine a gold locket with a simple inscription as their wedding gift. It stated, "Destiny".

Destiny. Serendipity. People state that life is all in our hands and we make the best of it. However, its one of the myriad of cliches I believe in. It puts a smile on my face, as funny as it may sound, it keeps me going. Having faith if I may say, surpasses everything.

I have faith with all my heart that certain strange melange, spur of the moment decisions and coincidences brought me to where I am, this very situation, this present, this moment in time.

Speaking of spur of the moment, I've decided to further my ballet insanity by taking up the Solo Seal Award. I'm hyperventilating as I'm blogging it out. Its so.. intimidating. I'm still questioning if this is a rash decision, its so far-fetching, ambitious and somewhat impossible in many many ways. Firstly, I've only been teaching small kids for several years and have not been practising in quite a fair bit. Secondly, the exams is going to be in July (right after my degree finals) in front of a small crowd (probably those snotty Russian ballet dancers who kick ass big time) and a panel of judges (gulp).

I was content when I completed the full vocational graded exams a while back but just a few days ago, I woke up feeling hungry for something challenging and far-fetching (The hunger arose from listening to RADIOHEAD'S THE BENDS. THE ALBUM SPOKE TO ME, I'M SERIOUUUS). I yearned for elevation, achieving bigger dreams, to self-actualise if I may say. Sigh. I am still coming to terms with what I signed up for. There's no looking back now. I don't have a tinge of regret actually, I'm surrounded with the doubts and fears that I may not be fully prepared by then.

There's so many decisions to be made! Variation from the 21st Century or the Classical Repertoire? I would most likely pick Classical Repertoire but which play?! Coppelia? Swan Lake? Le Corsaire? Sleeping Beauty?

Eeek I need to be SuperWoman till July comes around :S

I'm strangely excited on what is installed in the future undertakings though. Hee.

Wish me luck!